WTF! I am the only mother in New York that hasn’t lost the baby weight! At least that’s how I feel after doing my first ‘Mommy and Baby Dance Class’ with James today. I kid you not, the other mothers of 4 to 7 month-olds in the class are skinnier than I was before I got pregnant! I’m a size four right now but next to these Mamas I’m obese. Yes, I have had the odd terrible moment post-delivery of scarfing down three chocolate bars in a row, but I also eat a lot of salads! I swim twice a week, walk the dog, I’ve done some jogging and I exercised when I was pregnant…Yet, I am miles away from my pre-baby weight. In fact, getting changed before the dance class today I was shocked by my own reflection in the mirror – Its true what they say: “your body really does change with pregnancy.” OR DOES IT?! How have these mothers managed to stay a size zero – or double zero, triple zero!? Doctors tell you that you should gain on average 25-35 pounds during pregnancy, so what’s the deal? Ok, it is possible to loose 24 pounds in 6 months if you’re loosing a pound a week but are these new moms dieting? I’m breastfeeding so the idea of dieting kind of scares me: what if I don’t get enough calories or nutrients for my baby? Some doctors even recommend you eat a couple hundred calories more when you’re breastfeeding. So if these mamas are loosing the weight through breast-feeding they must not be taking in those extra calories. But then how are they starving off the hunger!?? Breast-feeding makes you hungrier and exhaustion makes you crave carbs so being a new mom on a diet requires super-human strength! Why am I so weak when they are so strong!? In class today, instead of being fully present and enjoying dancing with my gorgeous son, I spent too much time noticing my reflection in the class mirror. I couldn’t help grimacing at my saddle-bags, disliking my juicy thighs and feeling all that extra padding around my middle bounce on the off-beat. Worst of all, I felt like a failure. I felt like a failure because these other mamas clearly had more self-discipline than me meaning they would achieve more in life, resulting in them having more fulfilling lives. They were clearly better wives than me (because they looked hot for their husbands way before I did) and they hadn’t let pregnancy overtake them the way I had. I’d throughly enjoyed being pregnant because it was the first time in over a decade where I felt like I didn’t need to be skinny or hot. My life before baby had been about looking good (especially being an actress.) When I was pregnant it was so much easier to justify not worrying about my looks and frankly, it was very freeing. Now I wonder, did I do right? Should I have thought more about how I looked? Is gaining weight during pregnancy (and taking a year to loose it) passé?? Mamas? Daddys? Thoughts?